Friends? Like Job's friends? Who needs them?

… Maybe this information will sink into the spirits of all readers to shock them into REPENTANCE from their 'nice' lifestyles only to come up to a higher reality—the reality of the true and genuine life! Such reality can be easily reached by all if they so desire in their wills not in their minds and emotions!

From My Presence in My beloved Thia's journal…

Sunday, March 13, 2011 (1:39 am)
O well my Master—my Beloved Yahuwah/Yahushua thanks for giving me the wisdom and the strength to take the blows of rejection! Maybe two long hours to discover one more heap of insults and correction hiding in the carnal self of a friend! I simply do not any longer get shocked with the insults thrown at me as they accused me of placing myself as You and demand that they do one thing or the other out of their utter ignorance and willfulness to do as they think is best for them! Forgive them my Master for they do not know what they are doing!
Yet though I hurt as Your sadness and pain invades my being to see Your children groping in the darkness of sickness and poverty and injustice and corruption while they sing and entertain themselves in all kinds of ways but ignoring You and the ones that You have speaking for You not instead of You!
Even though I rejoice because as much as their repentance seems so utterly impossible to me with You ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE! And it is Your solemn promise to restore us! And You have commanded me not to doubt Your faithfulness to all!
Therefore let ALL insults buffet my physical making—my body & emotions for as the stones hurled at Yahushua those do not affect my eternal soul and they will not stop the work that You are accomplishing in my life for the benefit of us all!
Love, Thia
To my chagrin! Ha! I send this entry in my journal to my friend hoping for her to see what is my stand and perhaps profit from my bluntness but it turned out to be only to my chagrin! For it only upset her even more after the long exchange while I tried to clearly tell my friend much of the truth that she has not gotten because she is too busy considering her situation to be so very unique and my situation not nearly equal to the uniqueness of her situation! "You have not put yourself in my shoes! You are rude and stubborn and you do not explain things to me and you make feel stupid If you want to have friends you have to learn to be nice and kind to all!" She exclaimed to me enraged trying to convince me to be 'nice' to her!
Duh! Such is the case with all! For they are blind to see that when we insist in living in such 'unique' personal circumstances of sickness and poverty and lack and discord with the authorities and victimized by all who do not sympathize and be 'nice' to us—when we stick to such attitude WE ARE LIVING A SINFUL LIFE REGARDLESS OF ALL OF OUR SPIRITUAL EXPERIENCES AND RELIGIOUS OR SECULAR KNOWLEDGE! SUCH IS THE FACT ACCORDING TO THE WRITTEN WORD FROM OUR ALMIGHTY CREATOR!
NO! By all means I do not want to be a 'nice friend not to have 'nice friends'! Whatever for would I want to go back to such sticky and emotional psychological Greek bunk? Duh! Duh! Duh!
Monday, March 14, 2011 (2:51 am)
O thanks my Master—my Beloved Yahuwah/Yahushua for the amazing circumstances that You develop in my daily existence! Yesterday was a day of wonders between Ahmad and me! And the day ended after I cooked my own version of paella and we ate and fellowshipped for a while before I collapsed and slept for a few hours. I woke up after midnight and Ahmad and I had one of the most meaningful exchanges in a while. Then after all that You have accomplished in the last 3 hours or so I am now ready to turn off the lap and see if I can solve a problem with the Internet connection.
Monday, March 14, 2011 (2:56 pm)
O my Master—my Beloved Yahuwah/Yahushua what is the sense to talk to Your people? I just came back from a long walk and as I reflected while I walked there is no point in looking and hoping to find someone of like mind because there is no such thing in the scope of my little world! So I am shut in again!
Monday, March 14, 2011 (9:43 pm)
O my Master—my beloved Yahuwah/Yahushua this whole spectrum of friends or lack of them has gotten to be ludicrous! Totally laughable the way people goes about labeling me with all kinds of labels and are totally unable to see that they are guilty of the same things that they are labeling me for! O man! And stupid me! I get hooked up trying to make them see what they are doing to no avail!
Friends? Let's look up that label again for there is one thing to be labeled as a friend and another thing to be truly 'a friend'! and out of all the labels the label of 'a friend' is the worse of the worse of the labels! Because when that label is stripped off the worse of the human nature comes to the surface!
Friend? Like Job's friends? Who needs them? Not even Yahushua needed the loving concern from Peter! "Get thee beyond me Satan!" Yahushua told Peter when Peter was so 'nice' to Him! So what's my beef with all my loved ones who label me as 'friend' but do not comprehend a whit of what friendship or love or anything is just like my own self did not for most of my life!
And yet You—my Master—my Beloved Yahuwah/Yahushua—You saw fit to send Job those three 'nice' friends to tell Job about You when they did not even 'knew' You! Who can understand Your ways? For then You also send a fourth one to tell Job like it really was! Then…O but then! And only then after the fourth one spoke the TRUTH then… The most amazing whirlwind suddenly! whirled Job around and around until Job opened his spiritual eyes to really 'see' his utter guilt!
So that's the way You are doing it now my Master—my Beloved Yahuwah/Yahushua! That is what You did to me as I look at my whole life in retrospect! And that's what You are doing with everybody else! So You have now sent many enraged Elihus to tell the Truth that we must tell1 What is the TRUTH that every friendly and righteous soul in this world cannot see?
The truth is:

1. We are all dead set in considering our selves right and You—Almighty Yahuwah/Yahushua we consider to be wrong by dealing us all the miseries in this world! 2. We all claim to 'know' how to do and say everything nicely and how displeased You could be if we are not 'nice' and 'understanding' all about You and the way 'we think' You are! As it is written in Job 32:1-4 3.
2. We only understand what WE WANT to understand of Your written Word and apply such as we understand it missing out the rightful meaning of Your written WORD! It is written in Job 32:1-4,

So these three men ceased to answer Job, because he was righteous in his own eyes. Then was kindled the wrath of Elihu the son of Barachel the Buzite, of the kindred of Ram: against Job was his wrath kindled, because he justified himself rather than Elohim.

That is what we all do! We consider ourselves righteous in our eyes for all different reasons and by the different experiences in our lives! Namely our spiritual experiences and the few things that we think we are doing 'right'!

Also against his three friends was his wrath kindled, because they had found no answer, and yet had condemned Job.

And that is what the whole gang of people –self-righteous people does! Because they consider themselves polite and understanding and knowledgeable about You—Almighty Yahuwah/Yahushua

Now Elihu had waited till Job had spoken, because they were elder than he.

3. And yes like Elihu most of us have kept quiet until now and have gone along with the gang of understanding and knowledgeable people because though that we see the ugly side of evil in all human beings disguised in all that 'goodness' we do not have such knowledge and understanding of everything like most people think to have because of their 'higher' education or their amazing spiritual experiences!

And when I have come along to tell my testimony of how You convicted me of my utter wickedness and confess that I do not know You my Master—when I tell all these things that You tell me to tell about myself and themselves—all these people do is to condemn or judge or psychoanalyze me or worse yet they try to label me as a 'friend' to help me to do everything that You are leading me to do in a better way—their way!
O the futility of it all! I don't even know why I bother to write these things when I am just feeding fuel to the flame of rejection and disapproval of mankind! But You tell me to do it so I'll keep writing and writing and writing it all no matter how crazy and absurd and rude and arrogant and plain ugly and whatever else anybody can label me! One of these days they are all going to wear out of putting on and off labels on every soul of Your making and on my own self!
Thanks my Master for Your intervention to shake off all my longing to have friends and a good and happy life on these grounds! Thanks for opening my spiritual eyes once again to see, permanently! And thanks for keeping my sight to remain firmly set on You and the knowledge that I do belong to You and not to this world! This is not my world and I do not belong to it any longer! And I know that You will see to it that I continue to obey You even if it costs me everything dear to the flesh of man both within me and others!
Maybe! Just maybe! IF they happen to read this article this far…maybe this information—just maybe this information will sink into their spirits and You will begin to accomplish Your loving will on them as You are accomplishing it on me! For I sense You are telling me to write and publish this information now and then quit the publishing and quit everybody again—quit telling them anything else for a while until they wake up!
And this is so because until we wake up from our willful ways YOU cannot help any of us and we shall remain and die in our sinful states! For YOU cannot go against our wills. As long as we cling to our own understanding of things however reasonable and good and wise such understanding is—as long as we hold on to it, there is absolutely nothing that YOU can do for us!
I will now go to sleep in peace and with my heart full with the knowledge that somehow You will succeed and convict and restore us all because of Your mercy and goodness to us all! HalleluYah! I'm over and out for now!