The fulfillment of Matthew 10 coming to pass...

The fulfillment of Matthew 10 is taking place no matter who psychoanalyze the whole spectrum of what really is taking place!

But beware of men, for they shall deliver you up to sanhedrins (courts) and flog you in their congregations. And you shall be brought before governors and sovereigns for My sake, as a witness to them and to the gentiles. But when they deliver you up, do not worry about how or what you should speak. For it shall be given to you in that hour what you shall speak, for it is not you who speak, but the Spirit of your Father speaking in you. And brother shall deliver up brother to death, and a father his child. And children shall rise up against parents and shall put them to death. And you shall be hated by all for My Name's sake.

Reading the above passage we cannot imagine how could our children rise up against us parents and put us to death. Much less can we imagine how any of our piers would hate us for bearing His real Name! Yet as you read this article you will see how easily such thing can happen in the name of 'love' and 'understanding' and 'good intentions for the good of mom or dad' from the most lovable of children! Even my children could lock me up in a mental institution for my own protection if I was to get myself into dangerous grounds! A very real possibility and it's already happening!
I am well aware that as my children and any normal and sensible person reads this expose they could find no fault with my children for they have somewhat of a valid claim and indeed I could become the culprit and deserver of their behavior towards an unreasonable mother! And possible I could become an object for everybody to beware of instead of paying mind to anything worthy coming out of me! Yet! I will not defend myself nor retaliate anymore than what I have already done! I love my children with greater intensity than the regular emotional love that all recognize as love; and I bear no malice towards them because I know that they also love me though that their love is merely a sentimental emotion accordingly to the world's standards! Furthermore I always speak on first pronoun basis because in essence the core of my writings is my personal testimony of the Presence of the Almighty Creator of our beings—Yahuwah/Yahushua within my being! It does not mean that I consider myself to be alone on this earth without family or children or friends! That's ludicrous! Regardless it all, my hope and expectancy comes from the Almighty Yah I serve not from any sentimentalism! Thus I expect only good to come out of this sad and almost tragic episode of my journey on these earthly grounds!

Trip to the USA on March 5, 2012

From My Presence in My beloved Thia's journal…

Friday, February 17, 2012 (6:28 am)
Thanks my Father—my Master—my Beloved Yahuwah/Yahushua thanks for sustaining and strengthening me to march fearlessly on this valley of death that I am traveling under Your care and protection! So long ago You made it clear to me how I was to suffer for bearing Your name and following Yahushua in like manner as You made such fact known to Kepha—Peter & Shaul—Paul Your bond servants in the past. You have brought all the following Scriptures to my remembrance just now when my suffering has intensified with the continued rejection of Your Spirit within my being from my children because of the human wisdom to label me emotional unstable! But the simple fact is that the Almighty Creator of our beings has given me the courage to refuse to submit to such wisdom and instead of sitting in my cozy living room pampering my human disabilities I picked up my self to follow Yahushua!
Long time ago You—my Master told me to put my name in the place of Your servants in all the Scriptures that You would bring to my remembrance because You were speaking those same words to me at the present time! But now most all criticize, judge and condemn me for such practice because it is not according to their human wisdom! Mercy! Anyhow Your written words applied to me personally become alive and empower me to act according to Your will even when You have not stripped from me my human personality! Ha! Ha! HalleluYah! You are an awesome Yah and I thank You for bringing to my remembrance the following Scriptures before I continue with the present expose!

Luke 22:31-32
Simon, Simon—Peter—(Thia, Thia), listen! Satan has asked excessively that all of you be given up to him out of the power and keeping of the Father, that he might sift all of you like grain, Job 1:6-12; Amos 9:9 But I have prayed especially for you Peter (Thia), that your own faith may not fail; and when you yourself have turned again, strengthen and establish your brethren.
Act 9:16
For I will make clear to him (to me Thia) how much he (she) will be afflicted and must endure and suffer for My name's sake.
Col 1:23-29 And this He will do provided that you continue to stay with and in the faith in Messiah, well-grounded and settled and steadfast, not shifting or moving away from the hope which rests on and is inspired by the glad tidings (the Gospel), which you heard and which has been preached as being designed for and offered without restrictions to every person under heaven, and of which Gospel(Good News) I, Paul, (Thia) became a minister. Even now I rejoice in the midst of my sufferings on your behalf. And in my own person I am making up whatever is still lacking and remains to be completed on our part of Messiah's afflictions, for the sake of His body, which is the assembly or the congregation put together by the Set Apart Spirit without human hands! In it I became a minister in accordance with the divine stewardship which was entrusted to me for you as its object and for your benefit, to make the Word of Yahuwah fully known among you—The mystery of which was hidden for ages and generations from messengers and men, but is now revealed to His set apart people, to whom the Almighty Creator of our beings was pleased to make known how great for the Gentiles are the riches of the esteem of this mystery, which is Messiah within and among you, the Hope of realizing the esteem. Him we preach and proclaim, warning and admonishing everyone and instructing everyone in all wisdom (comprehensive insight into the ways and purposes of the Almighty Creator of our beings), that we may present every person mature (full-grown, fully initiated, complete, and perfect) in Messiah. For this I labor unto weariness, striving with all the superhuman energy which He so mightily enkindles and works within me.
Rom 8:11-14
And if the Spirit of Him Who raised up Yahushua from the dead dwells in you, then He Who raised up Messiah Yahushua from the dead will also restore to life your mortal (short-lived, perishable) bodies through His Spirit Who dwells in you. So then, brethren, we are debtors, but not to the flesh we are not obligated to our carnal nature, to live a life ruled by the standards set up by the dictates of the flesh. For if you live according to the dictates of the flesh, you will surely die. But if through the power of the Set-Apart Spirit you are habitually putting to death (making extinct, deadening) the evil deeds prompted by the body, you shall really and genuinely live forever. For all who are led by the Set Apart Spirit of Yahuwah/Yahushua are sons of our Almighty Creator--Yahuwah.
1Co 3:10-23
According to the grace (the special endowment for my task) of The Almighty Creator of our beings bestowed on me, like a skillful architect and master builder I laid the foundation, and now another man is building upon it. But let each man be careful how he builds upon it, for no other foundation can anyone lay than that which is already laid, which is Yahushua Messiah, but if anyone builds upon the Foundation, whether it be with gold, silver, precious stones, wood, hay, straw, the work of each one will become plainly, openly known (shown for what it is); for the day of Messiah will disclose and declare it, because it will be revealed with fire, and the fire will test and critically appraise the character and worth of the work each person has done. If the work which any person has built on this Foundation any product of his efforts whatever survives this test, he will get his reward. But if any person's work is burned up under the test, he will suffer the loss of it all, losing his reward, though he himself will be saved, but only as one who has passed through fire. Do you not know that you are a Dwelling Place of Yahuwah/Yahushua and that the Spirit of Yahuwah/Yahushua dwells in you? If anyone destroys the Dwelling Place of Yahuwah/Yahushua or corrupts it with false doctrines,Yahuwah/Yahushua shall destroy him. For the Dwelling Place of Yahuwah/ Yahushua is set-apart, which you are. Let no person deceive himself. If anyone among you supposes that he is wise in this age, let him become a fool let him discard his worldly discernment and recognize himself as dull, stupid, and foolish, without true learning and scholarship, that he may become really wise. Isa. 5:21. For this world's wisdom is foolishness (absurdity and stupidity) with Yahuweh/Yahushua, for it is written, He lays hold of the wise in their own craftiness; Job 5:13. And again, Yahuweh/Yahushua knows the thoughts and reasonings of the humanly wise and recognizes how futile they are. Ps. 94:11. So let no one exult proudly concerning men boasting of having this or that man as a leader, for all things are yours, whether Paul or Apollos or Cephas (Peter), or the universe or life or death, or the immediate and threatening present or the subsequent and uncertain future--all are yours, and you are Messiah's, and Messiah is Yahuwah's.
Rom 9:14-20 What shall we conclude then? Is there injustice upon The Almighty Creator of our beings' part? Certainly not! For He says to Moses, I will have mercy on whom I will have mercy and I will have compassion (pity) on whom I will have compassion. [Exod. 33:19.] So then the Almighty Creator's gift is not a question of human will and human effort, but of the Almighty Creator's mercy. It depends NOT on one's own willingness nor on his strenuous exertion as in running a race, but on the Almighty Creator's having mercy on him. For the Scripture says to Pharaoh, I have raised you up for this very purpose of displaying My power in dealing with you, so that My name may be proclaimed the whole world over. So then He has mercy on whomever He wills (chooses) and He hardens (makes stubborn and unyielding the heart of) whomever He wills. You will say to me, Why then does He still find fault and blame us for sinning? For who can resist and withstand His will? But who are you, a mere man, to criticize and contradict and answer back to The Almighty Creator of our beings? Will what is formed say to him that formed it, Why have you made me thus? [Isa. 29:16; 45:9.] Rom 11:32-36 For The Almighty Creator of our beings has consigned (penned up) all men to disobedience, only that He may have mercy on them all alike. Oh, the depth of the riches and wisdom and knowledge of The Almighty Creator of our beings! How unfathomable (inscrutable, unsearchable) are His judgments (His decisions)! And how untraceable (mysterious, undiscoverable) are His ways (His methods, His paths)! For who has known the mind of the Almighty Creator of our beings and who has understood His thoughts, or who has ever been His counselor? [Isa. 40:13, 14.] Or who has first given The Almighty Creator of our beings anything that he might be paid back or that he could claim a recompense? For from Him and through Him and to Him are all things. For all things originate with Him and come from Him; all things live through Him, and all things center in and tend to consummate and to end in Him. To Him be esteem forever! Amen (so be it).

Friday, February 17, 2012 (10:53 pm)
Though the fig tree does not blossom and there is no fruit in the vines, though the product of the olive fails and the fields yield no food, though the flock is cut off from the fold and there are no cattle in the stalls; yet I will rejoice in You my Master—my Beloved Yahuwah/Yahushua! For You are my Strength—my personal bravery and my invincible army! You make my feet like hind's feet and will make me to walk not to stand still in terror, but, to walk and make spiritual progress upon my high places of trouble, suffering or responsibility! Therefore my Master I worship You! I worship and I trust and I depend on You fully and completely even when I am dealt such blows of rejection from my own flesh and blood! No matter how deep of a wound they inflict upon my soul I bless them my Master and I beseech You, have mercy on them for they do not know what they are doing!
O my Master—my Beloved Yahuwah/Yahushua You have emphatically told me not to let money get in the way of Your work. And You have definitely told me that it is necessary that I go to the USA for the sake of Your children! You have led and watched over me so ever closely for the last four years more so than ever before; You have performed a wonderful and amazing work not just in my soul but also in my body; yet my child though not intended makes such malicious remarks to me, and I quote from her latest email,

Coming with no $ and spending all of your funds for the trip is not evidence of supernaturally being sent. It is evidence of being impatient and driven. I am not in a position this month or next to help you in any way financially once you get here, neither can you come here for a visit to witness or give testimony. There is nothing more you can say in person that will change my view or cause me to agree with you concerning where I should be.

I bravely have tried to ignore such blow but You know my Master that such stab hurts deeply—so deeply that I cannot ignore it for the life of me! For my child to insist that all things that are happening to me is only evidence that I am emotionally instable and totally discredit the amazing work You have done in my life is more than I can bear and You know it my Master! Yet I refuse to doubt You! Matthew 10 must be fulfilled,

See, I send you out as sheep in the midst of wolves. Therefore be wise as serpents and innocent as doves. But beware of men, for they shall deliver you up to sanhedrins (courts) and flog you in their congregations. And you shall be brought before governors and sovereigns for My sake, as a witness to them and to the gentiles. But when they deliver you up, do not worry about how or what you should speak. For it shall be given to you in that hour what you shall speak, for it is not you who speak, but the Spirit of your Father speaking in you. And brother shall deliver up brother to death, and a father his child. And children shall rise up against parents and shall put them to death. And you shall be hated by all for My Name's sake. But he who shall have endured to the end shall be saved. And when they persecute you in this city, flee to another. For truly, I say to you, you shall by no means have gone through the cities of Yisrael before the Son of Adam comes. A taught one is not above his teacher, nor a servant above his master. It is enough for the taught one to become like his teacher, and a servant like his master. If they have called the master of the house Beelzebul, how much more those of his household! Therefore do not fear them. For whatever is covered shall be revealed, and whatever is hidden shall be made known. What I say to you in the dark, speak in the light. And what you hear in the ear, proclaim on the house-tops. And do not fear those who kill the body but are unable to kill the being. But rather fear Him who is able to destroy both being and body in Gehenna.

And so my Master Your instructions are clear to me no matter how Your children and my own flesh and blood psychoanalyze me according to the wisdom of this corrupt and wicked world! No matter what I am going on as You instruct me to go! Let all the wicked and smart aleck goons in this world have their feast day with me as they so wisely psychoanalyze me according to the wisdom of this corrupt and wicked world! I do not fear them but I fear for them my Master and I will give You no rest with my plea to have mercy on them for they do not know what they are doing!
Friday, February 17, 2012 (11:42 pm)
You know my Master that I totally agreed with my child as she expressed to me her honest concerns about my mental health because according to the medical profession I am mentally and emotional instable! I have no quarrel with my child for her honest concerns and I quote an excerpt from her first email,

I know you think I understand and agree with much of what you have to say. I do not. But, I love you and care more about somehow breaking past all the issues so I keep my mouth shut. Mom, you are bi-polar. You have an emotional and mental disability. You have not been healed from it, although i wish you had been healed. You went off your medication because of what it was doing to you and you believed you were healed. I applaud that and I am so relieved that the medications are no longer doing harm to your physical body. But, the evidence is clear that you have not been healed. You do not sleep, or have erratic sleep patterns, you suffer from extreme depression and extreme emotions. You have extreme and reckless plans (often) that are more a way of life for you than an occasional circumstance. I am not asking you to go back on medication. I am not asking you to change anything. What I am asking you to do is to LOOK AT IT. I could deal with you and accept you so much more if you were somehow able to admit that you have emotional and mental disabilities. To heck with putting you on medications, I don't want you to have to do that. But, if you don't want to be on the meds, just listen to us when we tell you to calm down, stop and look. this is a bi-polar behavior. this is not the father. That is not to say that the father has not called you. that is not to say that He doesn't want you to go to Ohio or even the states. But the way you are planning, the being DRIVEN by it, those are bi-polar behaviors. That's why no one accepts you. It is not you, it is your denial of the fact that you are bipolar. I have friends who are bipolar. Often, they choose to go off their medication. they do not like it or it is making them sick. So, their erratic behavior starts or they get depressed or both. But , they admit they know it is the disease. Then, I (and others of their loved ones) are able to help them thru. Most of the time it is just a matter of supporting them, loving them, and accepting them....but holding them accountable to NOT ACTING on the moods or emotions. I have held this for far too long. I imagine a relationship where when an issue like this current one would come up and we could deal with it differently. Like this: * For one, recognizing that your going to Ohio to meet with strangers to give your testimony is erratic behavior. If you had unlimited funds, more power to you. But you do not. So you give it up, at least the part about going to Ohio. Then, we could deal with the part about you needing to come to the U.S. What makes sense? How long will it take to raise the funds? How long will you stay and where? Where will you go next? What needs to be taken care of? Will you return to that area, or is there somewhere else you will go? Then, we work those details out. And all the while we are going thru the plans and the trip you are recognizing that you need help to keep from doing insane/bipolar things. That's a big vision I have. One that I am not sure you are willing to try. But, I feel sure that if you would but ADMIT there are issues going on with you mentally and emotionally, things would be easier. Having the humility to say that you need help to stay on track would do more for your testimony than what you are doing now.

You know my Master that I more than recognize all my disabilities and frailties of my flesh therefore I have submitted all of those to You because the medical profession was not able to help me with their prescribed medicines nor with their so called 'support'! All of my life I faithfully submitted to all such things until four years ago. Four years ago when You opened my eyes to see my error and my sin for submitting to the world's ways and not to You I flushed away the medications down the sewerage and with those medications I also flushed all my misconceptions of You and everything that religion and society has taught me about life in general! And at that moment of my life I was set FREE—totally free from my wicked carnal nature!
And from that moment on You have taken control of all such things and You keep me from doing what my child calls insane/bipolar things. But Your keeping is not like the world's keeping for You do not impose Your will upon me! On the contrary You know my heart and my willingness to obey You no matter what within my human capabilities! You give me complete freedom to make my plans to obey you quickly and to the best of my ability and You delight Yourself to see my willingness! Therefore because You delight Yourself to see my willingness to obey You at any cost to my reputation as a normal human being, in the most unexpected ways You cause me to take care of Your business in a more sensible way than what I as a willing servant intent to do! And so about my trip to Ohio my brother/sister over there expressed their concern for the timing and I sensed that my plan was not sound but we—brother/sister and I prayed that all things be done according to Your will and timing! And so unexpectedly You opened my eyes to see a better plan before my child came up with all of her concerns for my insane/bipolar things.
And so I explained such to my child—and explained it to her in the most explicit way possible to me in the following emails and replies which I will quote for all to examine these happenings in my life in a sensible way and without psychoanalyzing this situation but only reading between the lines how the Scriptures are being fulfilled in the most reasonable way according to human standards and how our Father is bringing us all to see ourselves and quit looking for who is to blame! For it is NOT for us to psychoanalyze everything and form our own opinions about others according to our human understanding of everything under the sun! Indeed! It is time that we quit the blaming game! And so I will quote from my child's first email to my latest reply; I know is a long quote but it is crucial for all to make time to examine this matter for the sake of your eternal destiny!

Back to my journal...

From My Presence in My beloved Thia's journal…

Wednesday, February 15, 2012 (3:11 pm)
O my Master—my Beloved Yahuwah/Yahushua I had enough! I cannot connect with anyone! All things that You give me for them is not received in the Spirit that I send it! YermeYah seems to be only interested in badgering me with Your written words! I refuse to debate or discuss or defend myself! It seems to me that YermeYah's last reply is Your signal for me to turn to the right! So You know that as of now I have good in mind to leave on the 5th of March and go to the only place that I know will welcome me in NC—I will go to Clyde and wait to see what You do from there on! I just cannot go to a bunch of religious scholars! There is no time to play footsies with Your written words! If Your Spirit within my being cannot reach them there is nothing I can do but I will not go back to play any resemble of religion with anyone!
Wednesday, February 15, 2012 (9:59 pm)
Lo and behold! It came to me to call Clyde and Clyde immediately responded and welcomed me! He will pick me up at the airport and take me to his home then he will help me with my banking matters! Then to my greatest surprise I received the much awaited for response from Roxana! O how amazing are Your works my Master!

Roxana to Thia
Well, you will probably be upset with what I am about to say but in all honesty I have a lot of red flags concerning your going to Cincinnati with basically no finances and to meet complete strangers. I don't necessarily think these are your whims, and I do think that you believe you are hearing from the Father. However, just because you think you are, does not mean it is Him. neither does it mean it is Him if your plan to go there succeeds. I can understand you coming to the U.S. to take care of business matters, but even that is extremely expensive and not an easy task. The possibilities of you getting stranded and going thru all sorts of ordeals are pretty much guaranteed. And all of this for a month? And then where? And how? Coming back to the U.S. to stay makes more sense and that would be difficult. But at least we would only have to worry about you getting here and getting settled. And I say we, because it WILL involve all of us. You think it is just you and father, but we both know it is not that simple. going to Cincinnati and then trying to find a way to another place (or places) within the U.S. is just insane. we are talking hundreds of dollars for each proposed trip. Even me driving to Diana's house 4-5 hours away costs me $200 by the time I have to pay for gas and expenses. Cincinnati is not within driving distance to any of us or any of your friends or other family. so where is the $ coming from when it is time to leave Ohio? Especially if it turns out that the visit is only a very few days long and you cannot stay with them any longer? And are you still thinking Ahmad is coming? that is by far a worse idea still. Preparing for a visit with you bringing Ahmad is out of the question. I have not invited you into my home because quite frankly I believe the visit would be disastrous. We are far too distant from each other. I CANNOT have long discussions with you about the things you want to discuss. That is your passion, your purpose in life. I fully accept that, but I cannot be a part of it. That is the simple, hard truth.
I know you think I understand and agree with much of what you have to say. I do not. But, I love you and care more about somehow breaking past all the issues so I keep my mouth shut. Mom, you are bi-polar. You have an emotional and mental disability. You have not been healed from it, although i wish you had been healed. You went off your medication because of what it was doing to you and you believed you were healed. I applaud that and I am so relieved that the medications are no longer doing harm to your physical body. But, the evidence is clear that you have not been healed. You do not sleep, or have erratic sleep patterns, you suffer from extreme depression and extreme emotions. You have extreme and reckless plans (often) that are more a way of life for you than an occasional circumstance. I am not asking you to go back on medication. I am not asking you to change anything. What I am asking you to do is to LOOK AT IT. I could deal with you and accept you so much more if you were somehow able to admit that you have emotional and mental disabilities. To heck with putting you on medications, I don't want you to have to do that. But, if you don't want to be on the meds, just listen to us when we tell you to calm down, stop and look. this is a bi-polar behavior. this is not the father. That is not to say that the father has not called you. that is not to say that He doesn't want you to go to Ohio or even the states. But the way you are planning, the being DRIVEN by it, those are bi-polar behaviors. That's why no one accepts you. It is not you, it is your denial of the fact that you are bipolar. I have friends who are bipolar. Often, they choose to go off their medication. they do not like it or it is making them sick. So, their erratic behavior starts or they get depressed or both. But , they admit they know it is the disease. Then, I (and others of their loved ones) are able to help them thru. Most of the time it is just a matter of supporting them, loving them, and accepting them....but holding them accountable to NOT ACTING on the moods or emotions. I have held this for far too long. I imagine a relationship where when an issue like this current one would come up and we could deal with it differently. Like this: * For one, recognizing that your going to Ohio to meet with strangers to give your testimony is erratic behavior. If you had unlimited funds, more power to you. But you do not. So you give it up, at least the part about going to Ohio. Then, we could deal with the part about you needing to come to the U.S. What makes sense? How long will it take to raise the funds? How long will you stay and where? Where will you go next? What needs to be taken care of? Will you return to that area, or is there somewhere else you will go? Then, we work those details out. And all the while we are going thru the plans and the trip you are recognizing that you need help to keep from doing insane/bipolar things. That's a big vision I have. One that I am not sure you are willing to try. But, I feel sure that if you would but ADMIT there are issues going on with you mentally and emotionally, things would be easier. Having the humility to say that you need help to stay on track would do more for your testimony than what you are doing now.
I love you, and I hope you understand that I am not trying to be mean or ugly. I want a relationship with you. I would enjoy a visit with you, but only if you could admit that you are bi-polar. At this point, it is like we are living thru your lie to yourself that there isn't a problem. And i am not even talking about your testimony or any spiritual things. I am talking about you. It is the lie about your not being completely emotionally or mentally healed that is interfering with your relationship with your children more than the things you have been trying to share.
I don't know how else to say it. I am sorry I haven't been more honest with you about this. I did not want to hurt your feelings or upset you or start trouble. When you have called or written to me over the last several months, that is really what has been wrong with me, Momma. I have carried this around and prayed about it until there is a wedge so big between us, I cannot get past it. But, I am not going to live with the lie any longer. When you call me or write me, if I see or recognize evidence of bi-polar behavior, I am going to call you on it. Deal with it. I am going to be honest. then maybe we can get back to having real heart-to-heart talks. I love you too much to let this come between us anymore.
You are bi-polar mom. i know it, you know it. Admit it. If you cannot, admit it, I am going to love and accept you anyway, because you are smart, and funny, and wise, and you have more love in your heart than anyone I have ever known. But, I am going to call a spade a spade, love you thru it, and be willing to help you get to a level place.
Now, what are the next steps? How can I help you?
Signed, your loving daughter who feel like she got a weight off her chest and somehow knows that I have done the right thing. Roxana
P.S. I am sending a copy of this to Diana, Denise , and Robin. they know nothing of my thoughts or that I wrote this letter. I just felt like they needed to know what I said.
Thia Licona to Roxana
Roxana! Truly you have missed out! This is all I wanted--a letter like this! I know I am bipolar or whatever! Yes! I know it! And in this 4 years there has been a lot that I could have done if it wasn't because I know that my emotional condition is a fact! But much or even all that I have actually done though I have such condition what I have done is has been done supernaturally! It is more so because I know my condition and I have had to battle it all by myself because everybody is only interested in badgering me and calling me insane without giving any credibility to what our Father is doing with my life even under those conditions! For days and weeks and even months I have had to sit in my room and talk to my Father because I have no one else but Him! And for the life of me I cannot understand how have you all come to deal to me this kind of treatment for the simple reason that instead of whining about my condition Father/Yahushua blessed and called me to get up and follow Him!
Yes! I guard against doing things on a whim! But I am not afraid anymore because Father/Yahushua comfort me and I know He will never leave nor forsake me! As it is now I already made arrangements to go to Greensboro NC because Clyde is the only one who has offered me support and I know that Father will see about it all! But I definitely know 100% that I am not to go back permanently! About Ahmad coming over it's really a TOTAL impossibility because he is not ready -- he has yet to accept Yahushua and one of the big blocks for his predicament is because he sees my suffering all alone without the care from my children! Over here and with the people that I am dealing with (they are genuine and not anything that resembles a criminal) and your behavior towards me is considered on the verge of criminal and that is not an exaggeration, believe me! I have to constantly explain to them that I am here because of them and that you do help me! If only you would recognize that no matter what your behavior towards me has no excuse! But that is something that you will eventually understand and learn by the many things that Father has taught me while I am in this blessed land even under my conditions! And yes! Recognizing my condition has been the only plus that has gained the respect from many, many locals over here! And yes in spite of your behavior I NEVER talk badly about you all!
As it is going to Ohio is something that needs to be done but I am not in any condition to deal with Bible scholars and that is what this people seems to be--much the same as everybody else but at least I know my people but I don't know these ones and Father has released me from that burden! And I do not know what will transpire once I get there. For one thing I have to use my whole SS check to buy my ticket and I will not pay the rent that has to be paid because of the lease agreement but Ahmad will hold the rent until I come back. But then I will not pay the bank either and I have to go to BOA immediately when I get there--Clyde knows the bank officials there and they will help me of that I am sure which is the reason why Father is sending me to Greensboro! Like I say I am going and I am not any longer depending on any human being that Father does not lead me to call for help! Whatever happens when I get there I know it will be all good because Father tells me so not because of my elated emotions! Thank you for being honest with me! You could have saved both of us a lot of heartache if you would have written such letter a long time ago. But it is not need to bicker about it because Father knows that this was the perfect timing for you to do so! love, mom
Thia to Roxana
Please forward this to whomever if you think it's a good idea. Right now I am not in the mood to mail anything to anyone; Ahmad is very sick and that does not help my mood; maybe later on I'll do it when Ahmad comes back from Amman and I know more about his health and also when I know more about this trip. As it is right now I am all set to buy my ticket as soon as I get my SS CHECK on the 2nd. But nothing is written on stone so it can all change! But I believe that the info in this mail will help all to understand me better though that you may think differently. love, mom
Thursday, February 16, 2012 (6:15 am)
Roxana, I do not know how you have taken my reply to you. I hope it was taken in the Spirit in which I wrote it! Anyhow I am sending you the following entries in my journal to give you an account of what is going on and perhaps you can gather from there how you can help me! I am too wore out to ask for anything! Father has taken care of me for the last four years or so and He is not leaving me stranded anywhere He sends me of that I am sure! Also I have always known because Father has well let me know it that you all will eventually see Him in all of the most difficult times that we are going through! It is not for me to do or say anything else than whatever I have done and said about all matters that Father has had me to expose or proclaim! I love you all with the intensity of His love within my being but not with the emotional feeling of love that is commonly taken for love! So how can you help me? You can help me with your honesty! You can help me by reading the things that I write without the bias of my condition. You can help me by observing that in spite of all my bipolar plans and ideas I no longer ACT according to those plans and ideas even when it looks like I do and many times I cry to the Father with my usual, "Why did You let me do such thing?" And Father is always faithful to answer me and show me His reasons! Look! Before I received your email yesterday, Father had already released me from the burden of going to Ohio and I had already called Clyde and made the necessary arrangements for my stay there for the time being!
So please make time to read the following and in whatever way Father puts in your heart to help me I will be grateful! Especially if you can coordinate your help with your sisters because I am totally wore out and unable to deal with them anymore! But I do need help because my check will barely cover the price of my ticket and I will have not any funds until I get to the bank there. I was planning to ask the bank to withhold my payment for the next two or three months so I could use my next pay check to come back. And for that reason I was planning to stay there for the whole month of March. So whatever you can do is between you and the Father and your sisters!
Wednesday, February 15, 2012 (10:29 pm)
Father, I do not know how to thank You—there are not enough adequate words to express my gratitude to You! You are so good! Tears of joy welled up in my eyes as I see Your work in progress in our midst!
Thursday, February 16, 2012 (3:52 am)
Thanks my Master—my Beloved Yahuwah/Yahushua thanks for the few hours of sleep and the food that I just ate! This is another day bringing us closer to the end while Your children are still debating and studying and examining it all and coming to conclusions according to the knowledge they have acquired from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil but refuse to listen to Your loving beckoning to them! This world truly is a mad house! And truth is thrown in the street and trampled on even by Your beloved children! And he who departs from evil makes himself a prey! Yes I am prey—I am a victim of the spiritual predators—Your own children my Master! And I bear in my soul the horrible scars I have obtained as they gnaw my soul unmercifully! Thus Matthew 10 is being fulfilled,

Such is not a figment of my 'bipolar' condition! Such is the FACT! And it is swell and dandy for Your children to rejoice and be merry in the comfort that this world has offered them and therefore bow down to all kinds of evils—from psychological disorders to the most treacherous diseases and social-economic mishandling of their souls and bodies! It's swell and dandy for them because in their childish gullibility they believe themselves totally able and capable to handle anything for the sake of what they call 'sanity'! Yes! I am coming to the USA the super-power of this world yet still but, I am not coming to debate or discuss anything or subject that they fancy to debate or discuss! Absolutely NOT! I am not a 'Bible' or any kind of 'scholar' to engage in any such debates or discussions! I am simply a bond servant of the Almighty Creator of our beings and I am coming for the following reasons:
• I am coming first of all to give testimony of the work that the Almighty Creator of our beings is and has been doing in my life for the last 27 years or so!
• Then I am coming to warn the children of the Almighty Creator of our beings of the horrendous fate awaiting to them unless they repent of living their lives according to their present lifestyles be that style religious or secular style.
• And I am coming to give all hope and courage to wake up from their willful stupor and grab on to the loving and beckoning hands of the Almighty Creator of our beings to lift us all up above the cares and affairs of this miserable world that we inhabit!
• And lastly I am coming to tell all that this land to which the Almighty Creator of our beings has brought me to scout for all of my concern is indeed the land that the Almighty Creator of our beings has prepared for us to wait until His wrath is executed on the rest of this corrupted world!
Whoever wants to hear let him/her hear! And whoever chooses not to hear let him/her be! I am wore out and not fit for discussions or debates not even to counsel anyone! Whatever issue anyone may have let that one go to the Almighty Creator of our beings and put it all to Him! For it is written,

Isaiah 1:18
Come now, and let us reason together, says the Almighty Creator of our beings. Though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they are red like crimson, they shall be like wool.
Matthew 11:28-30
Come to Me, Yahushua is still saying, all you who labor and are heavy-laden and overburdened, and I will cause you to rest. I will ease and relieve and refresh your souls. Take My yoke upon you and learn of Me, for I am gentle—meek and humble lowly in heart, and you will find rest—relief and ease and refreshment and recreation and blessed quiet for your souls. For My yoke is wholesome—useful, good—not harsh, hard, sharp, or pressing, but comfortable, gracious, and pleasant, and My burden is light and easy to be borne. So may it all be done not by my power nor by my might but by the Set-Apart Spirit of the Almighty Creator of our beings. Love to all,

All that said and done my child replies to me with such cruel reality of her determination not to even let me visit with her and see my grandchildren and rejoice with all the work that Father is doing with me? Is that not the most cruel and incomprehensible thing that my children—because her sisters are doing the same thing to me? Over four years they have banned me from their homes and have kept me away from my grandchildren because I am 'insane' for getting up and answering the call from my Master! And the public wonders about what kind of mother I am to have abandoned my family?
Shocking reply from Roxana
Mom, I am sorry to hear the Ahmad is sick. As far as your coming to the states, it is good that you will not be going to Ohio, however your insisting on coming so soon is not a wise decision. First you say you need to come to take care of banking business, but more so you come to witness. Coming with no $ and spending all of your funds for the trip is not evidence of supernaturally being sent. It is evidence of being impatient and driven. I am not in a position this month or next to help you in any way financially once you get here, neither can you come here for a visit to witness or give testimony. There is nothing more you can say in person that will change my view or cause me to agree with you concerning where I should be.
If this were an emergency and it was imperative that you get to the states immediately to take care of business or if you were coming back to live permanently, it would be different. As it is, you do not need to come back right now. It would be a better witness and testimony to save as much money as possible each month until you can both finance your trip AND finance your travels once here AND finance your getting back. My offer to help was to help keep you from making plans and decisions that are unwise and decisions that would ultimately leave you stranded somewhere. It was not an open door saying that I agree you should come and I would help you financially or otherwise. Have you considered the purchase of a round trip ticket for 2-3 days to go to N.C. to take care of personal business? You could take care of what is needed to be done and it would probably cost less in the long run than staying for a month. That is a more feasible plan. I am not sure if I could help with the cost of that, but with enough notice, I may be able to help contribute towards that. I know I would be more willing to help you in that way than your current plan. I forwarded your email to Diana, Denise, and Robin. I have not spoken to them (except for Denise) and cannot say how they feel, but I am pretty sure they would agree with me. Love, Roxana
My innocent Reply at first
Well in reality it is not really being driven but this is something that has been planned for a long time but I never made the effort to do anything about it because my visa was taken care of and it was not necessary --absolutely necessary for me to go as it is now. My visa has been expired for better than a month now and it is for that reason that i need to go now! I did not have this situation before but Father always causes some sort of situation like this to get me going for His own reasons and I know that perhaps this do not agree with you or any one else but that has been His pattern for the last 27 years! I understand your concerns but so far I do not see any other alternative. though that I am confident that Father always leads me to the right way to go! I will discuss the situation with Ahmad and see where I go from there! love, mom
Thursday, February 16, 2012 (7:44 pm)
Thanks my Father for giving me the peace that surpasses all human understanding! Roxana's reply to my latest email to her was not quite in agreement with what You are doing with me as I sense it but only You know what will happen next! I refuse to get bent out of shape with the stubbornness of my children! They are all in Your hands and You know how You will deal with each one of them! All I ask is that You have mercy on them because they do not really know what they are doing to me and to You; and that You know it only too well! Mercy! Mercy! Mercy! Is my cry my Father and I know You are hearing it and answering me!
Thursday, February 16, 2012 (8:53 pm)
Father You know that I keep spreading my hand to my children for them to listen to You to no avail! My children tell me not to visit them because they do not want to hear my testimony for they will stick to their standards! So be it my Father for they remind me of the passage in Isaiah 65:2-6

I have spread out My hands all the day long to a rebellious people, who walk in a way that is not good, after their own thoughts-- (3) A people who provoke Me to My face continually, sacrificing to idols in gardens and burning incense upon bricks instead of at the prescribed altar]; (4) Who sit among the graves trying to talk with the dead and lodge among the secret places or caves where familiar spirits were thought to dwell; who eat swine's flesh, and the broth of abominable and loathsome things is in their vessels; (5) Who say, Keep to yourself; do not come near me, for I am set apart from you and lest I sanctify you! These are smoke in My nostrils, a fire that burns all the day. (6) Behold, it is written before Me: I will not keep silence but will repay; yes, I will repay into their bosom.

Now this morning the Spirit placed the booklet titled 'You Cannot Go Against Your Word!' into my hands and as I read it I realized how subtly this child of mine is trying to put me in bondage of their thinking and reasoning in the guise of 'love'! For in that book I recorded the following dream,

In that dream somebody had drove me to their home to visit but at one point I got up and announced that I was going home. And I walked outside only to realize that I had to walk home not ride in a car. I was carrying one of my little plastic bags which contains different things I use in my desk. Then I realized that it was windy and snow or ice was beginning to fall like if a blizzard was coming and I was considering going back inside to ask for a ride when I woke up!

That 'cozy' living room in my dream in 2009 in that book represented my desire to go along with my daughter and her suggestions as much as I could therefore I wrote the first brief reply in an attempt to accommodate her! But when I re-read that dream I saw that though my children love me and want to establish a relationship with me they are not willing to recognize their wrong! In the other hand my wanting to accommodate my child it's only because I am not enjoying this heavy blizzard storm going on since I left my former home or former ways! And Wow! Before I knew it my 'bipolar' condition arose! Ha! Ha! HalleluYah! Yeah! Bipolar alright! Ah! But the devil sure can play his hand to the extremes and do himself in for sure! The following email is sure to shake that child of mine by the power of the Almighty Set-Apart Spirit! For it surely is HIM the very ONE who inspired such strong rebuke to my precious child! Hope all of you people can decipher this situation by the power of the Almighty Set-Apart of our Creator of our beings—our Loving Father Yahuwah! I quote,

Friday, February 17, 2012 (2:53 am)
Roxana, As I read your first email my hope for you coming to your senses and for us to establish a sound relationship in the Spirit of our Father was momentarily restored; but as I reflect on your second email I see that there is no such thing as you coming to your senses much less of establishing a sound relationship in the Spirit of our Father! You are just the same as everybody else—stuck in the mud of your self-righteousness and worldly wisdom like mules in a mud pile and there is no human way to un-stick you! Have it your way but my hope is really NOT set on you—my hope is on the Almighty Yah I serve. The more I think of your second email the more appalled I come to see your subtle way to temp me into coming into submission of your misguided ideas and thoughts! To begin with you have no conception of the reality of the spiritual world and all your wisdom comes from the tree of the world just like everybody else's wisdom! It breaks my heart to realize such thing but let me call the spade, spade in all honesty! You do not want to hear my testimony and as far as you and your sisters are concerned my life is only a product of my mental disability as you put it! You are only a bunch of foolish, foolish and arrogant self-righteous and wicked human beings! And ignorant at that of anything of eternal value! Perhaps your reading comprehension is nil! How many times have you read 1 Corinthians 1:19-21 For it is written, I will baffle and render useless and destroy the learning of the learned and the philosophy of the philosophers and the cleverness of the clever and the discernment of the discerning; I will frustrate and nullify [them] and bring [them] to nothing. [Isa. 29:14.] (20) Where is the wise man (the philosopher)? Where is the scribe (the scholar)? Where is the investigator (the logician, the debater) of this present time and age? Has not God shown up the nonsense and the folly of this world's wisdom? (21) For when the world with all its earthly wisdom failed to perceive and recognize and know God by means of its own philosophy, God in His wisdom was pleased through the foolishness of preaching [salvation, procured by Christ and to be had through Him], to save those who believed (who clung to and trusted in and relied on Him). But of course! You are so smart! So smart that I am sure you have your own interpretation and perhaps you have already diagnosed Paul as 'bipolar' also! And of course! You can always come up to tell me that I am not Paul like jack-ass Robin always flaunts at me! You fools! There is no such a thing as mental disability! Mental disabilities are nothing else but a fabrication of the devil himself to destroy the faith of the children of the Almighty! Put that in your pipe and smoke it! And pass on that good pipe to your sisters!
I had enough! You do not need to answer this nor answer any of my emails nor answer my phone calls! And I do not need your worldly advise or help of any kind! You are my children not my Master! Go on and on like blind men without a dog to fall into the ditch! I had enough of your insults in the guise of love! You all have not got an inkling of what love is all about! To the point of totally breaking my heart into a zillion pieces! Still my love for you is real and everlasting! Your mom (End of quote)

Come! Come! All you people! Can you all not see that yes! According to this mad civilization I am 'insane'! But the Almighty Creator of our beings does not abide by the mandates of this mad civilization even the society of mankind both religious and secular! Even though His ways and mandates are FAR superior to any and all the mandates of such civilization! Again Whoever wants to hear let him/her hear! And whoever chooses not to hear let him/her be! I am wore out and not fit for discussions or debates not even to counsel anyone! Whatever issue anyone may have let that one go to the Almighty Creator of our beings and put it all to Him! Yes! Go to the Almighty Creator of our beings and put it all to Him because He is the One Who will sit in the throne of judgment on that day that will soon come upon us all! May His mercy reach to each and every single one of His children in the four corner of this earth!
For I will publish this whole issue in the SITE to reach all of His children so that no one has an excuse and claim that they were not told over and over again to look at themselves and repent and quit badgering anyone who steps out to follow the Master and Creator of our beings by the power of His Spirit and not by the power of any self and carnal efforts and ambitions!

Amazing Yah, what awesome sound,
That Name to a wretch like me....
I once was lost but now I am found,
Was blind, but now, I see.
T'was Yah that taught...
my heart to fear.
And Yah, my fears relieved.
How precious did that Name appear...
the hour I first believed.
Through many dangers, toils and snares...
I have already come.
T'was Yah that brought me safe thus far...
and Yah will lead me home.
My Yah has promised good to me...
His word my hope secures.
He will my shield and portion be...
as long as life endures.
When we've been there ten thousand years...
bright shining as the sun.
We've no less days to sing Yah's praise...
then when we've first begun.
Amazing Yah, what awesome sound,
That Name to a wretch like me....
I once was lost but now I am found,
Was blind, but now, I see.

Love to all—His love not the love from this humanly speaking 'pitiful thia/Basilia'!

This is truly a lively SITE and it's ALIVE! It grows practically on the daily basis as I add the sequence of its growth! Therefore it must be read backwards—from the present to the past—from what I post today to what I posted yesterday or even a month or years ago! I try carefully to link all articles in the order of importance but it is a very difficult task because I have no way to tell what is important to whomever! Plus the WHOLE content of the SITE is of the uppermost importance in the sight of our Maker! So not only I strictly publish all articles as the Set Apart Spirit leads me to do but likewise let the Set Apart Spirit guide you as to what you need to read or what applies to you at the moment of you entering the SITE! Be blessed as you surf away!!!

To read the previous articles please click right here: A Note to Ahmad... | To the core of the things that I am seeing with the eyes of my spirit... | O children of the Almighty Yahuwah, whats wrong with you all? | What Is Life Bklet | At the end could You be telling them, I never knew you? | This is Human Nature Love Hate_the knowledge of Good and Evil...

In fact from here on out I will publish up front the latest work of the Father within my being! For it is all about our Father's work of restoration for us all! Therefore I'm publishing any writing that the Father's Set Apart Spirit inspires me to publish up front for all to read and pause to reflect on the matter recorded! So take note of the latest entry following below!

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Dear Visitor, Go on now and enter and behold the thread of our Maker's work within my being as well as within the being of all involved in my life! For as you follow such thread you will find the Way and the Life and the Truth that you and all are looking and searching for without even realizing that such is what you are doing! Go on enter and surf away!